Holly’s Story: Room for Me..

My name is Holly and I’m 28 years old. If i had to describe myself I would say I’m a mom, and a wife… and that’s all. I don’t have hobbies and honestly, I’m not sure what I like doing besides being those two parts of my life. I take care of people and I love that part of my life, but we all need to ‘know’ ourselves. I lost myself a while ago and I’m trying to find my way back to find where I fit at, my purpose, and things that make happy about me.

As a mother you constantly pour into everyone else- children, husband, close friends, other family, your job, and often loose yourself. It’s took me a very long time to realize this without feeling guilty for feeling like this. That’s not me complaining- I love my child and my husband more than anything. Life just over fills your time, and you let it all go.

My confidence struggles enough with body imagine, then I have to add in my heath issues. I have Lupus, fibromyalgia, Sjögren’s syndrome, PCOS, and the list go on. I stuggle so hard with having days where I truly feel like my world is falling apart and having pain that seems to never end. Things that should come easy being in my 20s and a young woman are not, and mentally it is draining. I have a 2 year old beautiful daughter that is my miracle baby but have lost 2 other children. One just a couple of months ago. Infertility, pregnancy loss, and now learning pregnancy would not be a safe option for me have been so incredibly hard to come to terms with. I’ve been trying to stay positive and know these things are out of my control and worry about things I can take control of while being happy right where I am.

If I’m being very honest, letting myself go also meant being the heaviest I’ve been in my entire life. My heath issues haven’t helped my weight either due to medications. It has played a huge mental factor in my everyday life. Putting myself down all the time. Out loud and in my head to myself. Having -0 confidence in yourself does so much to you, not just how you view yourself- it strains your relationships/ marriage, how your children will view theirselves some day. We all have heard this 100 times before, but it’s very hard to change. I want to change for me but also be better for them.

It’s been a hard year.. But the rest of this year I want to find a way to make room for occasional me time, have confidence in myself that will grown with time, and be able to show my daughter as she grows up what strong, confident, brave mom looks like in her OWN skin- no matter what life throws at you.

This session was the most vulnerable thing I’ve done in a very long time. Maybe ever? I was so excited to take a step forward doing something for myself, and be shown how the body that I feel like ‘fails’ me in so many ways can still be something to be proud of.

I cannot say this enough, if your questioning having a session, just book with them. This has been the best experience of my life. My 20 minutes to shine during this storyteller session was nothing short of incredible because of Rachel and Justin. I don’t see how it wouldn’t be for anyone else too. They are so talented and the most kind humans. Not everyone can do what they do with such ease + make you feel the exact level of comfortable you need to be while there with them.